ALL ALONE

As I mentioned before, I am the masturbating queen. I chose to involve myself in a long distance relationship (for more reasons than I am going to get into right now) but suffice it to say, I have decided that long distance isn't for me.

I have masturbated a lot in the last few months. I have masturbated more than I think I ever have in my entire life. I have diddled myself on the computer, on the phone, was thinking about the web cam (decided against it) and in the shower. I have flicked my bean in the car, in my bed, in front of the mirror, on the floor. I have found myself thinking about doing it in the bathroom at work, which, thankfully, has remained just a thought.

I have done it standing up, sitting down, dogie style, splayed out on the bed and cowboy style. I have enjoyed and entertained myself while waiting for 'us' to get together for some real deal fun. It isn't like I have never masturbated before (I do know how to get the job done folks), but I have never expected this kind of solitary relationship with myself while in a relationship with someone else!

So I am here to tell you that diddling yourself for your own pleasure is a terrific hobby, a pleasurable sport and fulfills the need to a certain degree, but after so long, you realize that you are not keeping yourself company anymore. I am not willing to wait to hear his voice from afar whenever he can find a few moments to spare, because to be honest, I have discovered that I don't need to wait for someone else's convenience. I want what I want, and I want something different now.

Diddling myself to this degree has been a great educational opportunity though. I have discovered some new sexual fantasies that I didn't know I had, and talk about technique and toys...:) well, you get the gist, so I really can't say that it is all bad, because when is an orgasm EVER a negative? (This is a rhetorical question, honest)

So for now, I bid you all a goodnight...I have some business to attend to.